My digital diary with my aspirations, thoughts, and random things ♡.
My digital diary with my aspirations, thoughts, and random things ♡.
Senior year Jitters 08/31/25
Hiii! So, senior year starts in t-minus 2 days ૮₍˶Ó﹏Ò ⑅₎ა Not gonna lie, I am a bit nervous because high school wasn't exactly like highschool musical for me to say the least. Don't get me wrong, it was fun for like grade 9 and a bit of 10 but honestly it sucks. I am a bit of an introvert and tend to get sucked into my own head a bit, so trying to make friends while constantly thinking about what's next kinda sucks becuase everyone thinks I am just never listening. But, I am excited for University stuff too, but my family seems kinda sad because I am not so little anymore .·°՞(っ-ᯅ-ς)՞°·. I am excited to get out into the real world you know? I feel like I have been too trapped in high school, and feel like I always have to prove myself (I am kinda a try-hard at school) but I just want to have fun this year and not take every little thing so serious. Anyways.... have y'all seen MLWTWB yet?? That ending was so... yea bad girl. I am obvi team Cole but we barely got any scenes with Jackie and Cole! I was so mad. My sis and I watched it tgth and the ending really just got on our last nerve. We aren't even getting season 3 till next year :( It's okay though, just use this post as a reminder to chill out, rest up, and take a lot of beauty sleep my beauties! I'll update you guys when school starts!! Lots of Love ♡♡
Senior year so far!! 11/14/25
Hi everyone! So, I'm back!! Lemme tell ya, it's been a ride and a half. I am currently in my second month or so of my senior year and first semester I have Computer Technology, English, Chemistry and Math. I actually like it so far, my first period is pretty chill, but girl the coding assignments are in Tinkercad and obviously use a different coding language than HTML (what we use here) and I was lowkey kinda lost (like who uses blocks still????) Anyways, I'm adjusting really well (I have had so much coffee the past 2 months) and obviously university applications are around the corner ૮₍˶Ó﹏Ò ⑅₎ა and I've been going on tours and checking schools out which is honestly pretty exciting. I recently toured one that I really liked ♡ I def see myself going there but also I wanna keep my options open. Grade 12 IS SO MUCH WORK THOUGH!!!! every week it seems like I have 3 quizzes, 2 Tests and 2 Assignments and sometimes a lab due a week like bruhhh that's why I haven't been able to keep up the site as much as I wanted to. I haven't learned much HTML since august, but you can't really blame me fr. One of the main things I do to keep myself sane is to take care of myself, despite being bombarded with work, always take time to do your hair, makeup, or just do things that make you feel like you! For me, that means doing my hair, makeup, and feeling clean. Doing this everyday makes me feel like I do have control of my life, and I'm prepared for everything ᕙ( •̀ ᗜ •́ )ᕗ. I would have to say rn chem is def one of my harder classes and we have our Orgo test next week, and I have a lab, assignment and coding assignment due this week and they're kinda complicated, but this is way less work than I had over the past few weeks, so I'm grateful •ᴗ•. I'll def update you guys on universities and I'll for sure do more, but these next few months please be patient with ya girl, I have to make sure that I can complete everything I need to do, and that sometimes means including time for rest. So, the main takeaway this week is despite the grind and working hard, it's okay to take breaks to recoup and come back stronger (I should really take my own advice, cause even I struggle with it ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) Lots of Love ♡♡
Touring my (past) Dream University (｡ · v ·｡) ? 11/15/25
Hello girlies ♡ Today I went to tour the university I was dreaming about for the past 3-ish years, and I was catfished. This school is so well regarded and had the program that I wanted to get into, and I have been lowkey eyeing it up since grade 9/10, HOWEVER as I went to their open house today and I was SEVERELY underwhelmed (real instagram vs reality moment). I really wanted to like this school cause not only is it an impressive party trick to pull like "hey I'm a total goof, but I also go to xyz university (⸝⸝> ᴗ•⸝⸝)" but girl lemme tell you the 411: We (my parents and I) got lost because people told us the wrong directions twice, there was dookie on the washroom toilet seats, people were lowkey shady as frick and the ultimate deal breaker for me was that they barely had ANY GOOD FOOD PLACES (╥﹏╥). I'm really starting to contemplate where I want to go for sure because I don't want my parents to waste their money on a program that I absolutely hate. I am not a very fussy person, especially when it comes to university (ik I'll have to compromise) but it seems like no one wants to be there too (like why did everyone look super super stressed???) Also, I was asking a lot of questions but people were kinda gatekeeping information and that lowkey pmo. I think the other university will be way better for me cause the have an array of food options and its not soley based on academics. Another dealbreaker for me is that since the program I want to do is so niche, it doesn't reach the requirements for the MCAT. So, if I had to take it, I would have to self-study for the MCAT on top of studying for regular schooling. The other school I can go straight to that and there are plenty of Co-op opportunties. If you had to take something away from this, just don't stress during this often daunting season of uni apps, and know that you'll always end up where you're supposed to be, and even though I wanted to go to this school, sometimes it's not meant to be and that's fine. Often, everything that happens to you, happens for a reason. Lots of love ♡♡
Life is just Life. 11/16/25
Hey Girlies, I am lowkey dreading next week. I have a few things to do tmrw but today holy guacamole, I was so busy. I literally went to sleep on saturday (technically sunday morning) at 1:30am, and woke up at 7:50am cause I was so stressed. I had to finish a little novel study assignment and that FREAKING TINKERCAD ASSIGNMENT I got it working for the most part its just 2 parts that don't work and atp I surrender bro. Like why are these challenges so hard (ref do smth please 🥀 ). Anyways, despite that (and its due tmrw but we have till 11:59pm) next week we have our Orgo and Trig unit test like 2 days apart so please help (⊙_◎)But to be fair, I am very grateful for like a less busy week this week so I'll try to make the most of it and enjoy my free time as much as I can. If you have to take anything from this post, use this as a reminder to take it easy, but still try your best. Always rest and fill your cup to do your absolute best in whatever you do (also try to keep a positive attitude!!) Lots of Love ♡♡
"To be or not to be" - Girl atp it's sounding better not to be 11/26/25
Hello guys, today was well... a day. Today was our academic awards ceremony, and you girl ofc got the honor roll and I had the highest average in my law class last year so I got an award for that too. I am super grateful, but OMG I HATE PEOPLE!!. I fr was so happy until picture time and then literally like tell me why one person from my "friend group" told me not to be in the picture. Then, I saw my ex bff and that all mixed tgth made your girl cry. Also, in math (for one section on the test I got a mark I didn't want) and chemistry so much stuff got dumped onto us and I feel very overwhelmed, and guess what... I was violently sobbing near the staircase with one of my friends that I barely see and MY CHEM TEACHER SAW ME CRY ദ്ദി╥ ᴗ ╥). He was rlly sweet abt it but still, I was so embarrassed. I was so left out today, so when I came home I just kept crying fr like I couldn't stop bro. If there is one thing you can take from this, please keep yourself first and prioritize your mental health, if that means putting off some homework until the weekend, do it. Prioritize yourself, and if you're being left out, find some new friends babe you deserve better. Lots of Love ♡♡
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Where the cameras at I KNOW I'm getting pranked now 11/27/25
Hello, please excuse my language but what the hell happened today????? Well sit down and get some popcorn. So today was a dress down day at our school and I wore a grey tracksuit, and this is the day after that whole disaster of a day yesterday. None of my "friends" were here today, so I did the impossible. So last year, my ex-bff ended our friendship on a bunch of miscommunications, so today I gained the courage to go talk to her again and clear up the air. Now we're friends again ٩(^ᗜ^ )و ´-. Honestly, I have been missing her so much and I felt really guilty for what happened, so I'm glad we talked it through. We both missed eachother so much and we hugged it out and I'm so happy we did!! Also, my chem teacher was so nice to me after he saw what happened yesterday, and before I left he told me to take some rest, but I have an essay outline due on Monday, and a math test on tuesday but today I'm gonna chill and pick up where I left off tmrw. Honestly, today was a complete 180 from yeserday, and I believe that it had to do with my "friends" not being here. Today I was so happy and it was super chill, but I know I'm gonna be super busy for the next few days, but it's okay. So, if there is one thing you can take away from this is that (as my chem teacher said as I was violently sobbing my eyes out) things will get better, and when you need rest you should take it, you cannot put in your 100% at 50%. That goes with all things, like if you are too tired to complete all your math problems now (and start chatgpting the rest of the answers and trying to understand that instead of critically thinking) that probably means you need to take a break and start fresh later. Lots of Love ♡♡